the green eye monster
jealousy. a word when dissected encompasses the word lousy in it.
and true enough, lousy is what we feel when we are engulfed by this greeneyemonster.
you can't quite put a finger to it. you can't quite figure out why you are upset.
at the back of your head you know its just irrational thinking, the devil doing its work so well again;
tugging at your heartstrings. nudging you just a little out of the comfort zone you so carefully carve out for yourself.
in a way i don't need to know your everymove, yet sadly everytime i call you, just to have a nice quick chat after a long day, you are out with a friend. different friends but with similar traits..all female and all in which had a distinctive history with you.
i can't compete with them, your history with them and i know its silly to worry myself sick over these beings.
as such i am penning these illogically heart-wrenching thoughts down. hoping that a simple act as such could eviscerate the evil within me.
let me become a bigger-hearted person who knows her own worth in this cruel world of ours.
and true enough, lousy is what we feel when we are engulfed by this greeneyemonster.
you can't quite put a finger to it. you can't quite figure out why you are upset.
at the back of your head you know its just irrational thinking, the devil doing its work so well again;
tugging at your heartstrings. nudging you just a little out of the comfort zone you so carefully carve out for yourself.
in a way i don't need to know your everymove, yet sadly everytime i call you, just to have a nice quick chat after a long day, you are out with a friend. different friends but with similar traits..all female and all in which had a distinctive history with you.
i can't compete with them, your history with them and i know its silly to worry myself sick over these beings.
as such i am penning these illogically heart-wrenching thoughts down. hoping that a simple act as such could eviscerate the evil within me.
let me become a bigger-hearted person who knows her own worth in this cruel world of ours.
hey dear, its ok to feel like this. I'm glad you are rationalizing the thoughts and saying it out coz if you do keep it inside then it would be harder. But i guess you also have to slowly learn that ed really does only has you in his heart now. And it takes time k dear, no worries dun rush yourself to accept it yar. ANything call me yar.
Posted by
Nikki |
10:12 AM
Hey gal,
it's normal to feel like that. If u ever stop feeling like that one day, then ur feelings for him would haf faded, coz u no longer care who he's wif. The most impt thing is to tok things out. Cliche as it may sound, it works..really well. Call me up or msg me ya? Love ya..
Posted by
*GeL*ThE*GreaT* |
2:16 AM
hey XY and gelobeano!
thanksss gal!
my two faithful followers of wendyheqingli.blogspot.com!
hahaha!
on a more serious note..thank you so much dearies..i am really feeling alittle down nowadays but thats alrite! we are masters of our own fate and we just got to learn to cope and adapt to circumstances and changes!
thanks sweeties! seeya gals soon on friday!
love,
trendeeewendeee the blogowner!
Posted by
trendywendy |
10:53 AM